I spent most of yesterday packing and got a lot done so I only packed 3 boxes this morning. I decided that I needed to do something else. So I did some organizing and then put on a dress so I wouldn't be tempted to do more packing :-) I took a walk down Main Street and snapped a few photos of the dogwood trees in bloom. When I got home, I sat out on the front porch and thought about things.
I thought about how much I need a change in my life. How much I need to let go of the past and the people, places, and things that no longer serve me. I need to do things because I enjoy doing them, not because it is a habit or obligation. How much I need to listen to the still, small voice inside of me and follow my heart. I am not like everybody else and I need to follow my own path. How much I need to let go of all the external creative inspiration online and follow my own path. I will be setting up a dedicated art/quilting studio in my new place and I will use this to focus more on my own creativity. How much I need to love and be loved. And I am, but I need something more in my life and I need to stop hiding from that.
It is the ordinary things that bring so much happiness. And while I love art journaling and it is an important part of my life, it is not all there is. I love taking photos and sharing them and my Motorola phone takes such great photos. I want to try all sorts of new ideas and combine different things together. I want to spend more time in the kitchen and my son's girlfriend Aurora is an inspiration. I want to learn how to make her chicken enchiladas and Pad Thai and other wonderful foods from all over the world. I needed an apron to fry bacon this afternoon (I never buy bacon but I woke up with a craving for a BLT) and realized those were already packed so I found an old T-shirt with paint stains on it to wear over my dress. It was so nice to just spend time in the kitchen instead of rushing through making dinner. I truly felt at peace.